Not Too Long. You’re Almost There.

Last night, Kanako, a dear friend who is no longer with us, visited me in a dream. Her presence was comforting, and the message she brought was simple, yet profound. “Not too long. You’re almost there.”

I’ve been living with the knowledge that my life is nearing its end. It’s a reality that brings both moments of sadness and quiet reflection. While some might interpret the dream literally, I believe it’s a reflection of my own state of mind—an inner knowing.

I’ve been living with the knowledge that I’m dying for a while now. It’s not something a doctor had to tell me, though ‘death’ was said to me years ago. Instead, it’s something I feel intuitively. It’s a quiet, steady knowing, a sense of nearing a profound transition. It’s not a scary feeling, but a deep and profound certainty, like the quiet that falls just before the first snowflake.

Again, it’s an intuitive sense, not a logical one. It’s in the way the colors seem a little brighter, the silence feels a little more profound, and the smallest moments carry the most weight. I see a flower and don’t just see a flower—I see a beautiful, living thing, and I’m aware of my deep connection to it.

This knowing has changed how I live. I find myself letting go of things that used to matter—small worries, old grudges, the need to control every outcome. Instead, I’m drawn to things that truly matter: the warmth of the sun on my face, a good conversation with a friend, the simple comfort of being present in the moment.

Some might call it a premonition. I see it as a gift. It’s an opportunity to live my remaining time with purpose and peace. It’s a chance to say the things I need to say, to hug the people I love a little tighter, and to find a sense of completion, not of loss. This isn’t about giving up; it’s about embracing what is. And in that embrace, I’ve found a kind of peace I never knew was possible.

This dream wasn’t about a timeline. It was about peace. It felt like my subconscious was giving me a message of comfort—that I am on the right path and that the journey, while difficult at times, is nearing a gentle close. It was a reminder that I’m approaching a different kind of destination, one that I’ve been preparing for.

The phrase, “You’re almost there,” felt less like an ending and more like a final, reassuring step. It’s a powerful thought to hold on to. It reminds me to cherish these last moments, to find beauty in the small things, and to feel a sense of completion, not of loss.

I’ve always believed that dreams have a way of speaking to our deepest thoughts, and this one has given me a sense of peace that I needed. It’s a comfort to know that even in the quiet of the night, my own mind is guiding me toward acceptance and tranquility.

Unknown Buddhist